January 2011
1 post
A Chronicle of Experience Begins
So much has happened in my life in the past month or so. I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl on the 3rd, Alice Loreea McNay. She weighed in at 7lbs 15 oz, and 21 inches long, she had a head full of hair and lungs like her mamas. She also had a few little surprises for us that turned my whole world upside down (again, because she did that when she was born). We stayed in Blessing Hospital from...
December 2010
2 posts
Things I Used to Say
I used to say I wanted fame
But then I lost my privacy
I used to say I wanted love
Until it ripped a hole in me
I used to say I had no fears
And now I’m so afraid
I used to say I wanted success
Then I learned the price I’d have to pay
I used to say it would all get better
But that was just a lie
I used to say I’m doing great
Now it’s just I’m fine
I used...
November 2010
2 posts
I always want something above where the bar is...
and I’m always disappointed. This results in making other people feel bad. You’d think I would know better by now.
October 2010
3 posts
Living through giving up
It’s a strange feeling. To keep going in a situation where basically all hope has been stolen from me. Sheer will and determination to make it work are the only things I have to hold on to. How do you keep moving, keep going, keep smiling. To keep working for the dream goal, when I don’t even want to be touched?
I’m fighting the urge to hit my knees and beg you to let me be the person you come home to. It kills me that you don’t want me there, that you don’t miss me the way I miss you. I look around at all the empty space and wish for your presence to fill it. But you don’t want to. I know that, because if you really wanted to. You would.
September 2010
7 posts
Watchthedailywhat:
Cry of the Day: 35-year-old Sydneysider Kristian Anderson was recently diagnosed with cancer and is currently undergoing chemotherapy. Despite his illness, he wanted to express his gratitude for all the support he’s received from his wife Rachel, so he made her this special birthday video, complete with cameos by New Zealand Prime Minister John Key and actor Hugh Jackman.
Better...
August 2010
22 posts
Swiss Cheese.
I’m thinking about relationships this morning. Talked to a good friend about her relationship and how it is going so well (very happy for her), saw the wedding pictures of someone I used to adore and his new stunningly happy bride who is an acquaintance. I couldn’t get over how forced his smile looked to me, and it made me wonder about my own relationship.
I spent the weekend in...
S-O-L-O in Chicago: An adventure
So, I am finally settled into my awesome hotel room :) It has been a long day, and interesting.
The train arrived 15 minutes early, which was fine with me because it was HOT. Macomb stop is where things got fun, everyone was bombarded with college age seat mates that either flirted with married men, thought they had the best taste in alcohol because they drank absolute, or had less brains that it...
There have been serious tears
for the past twelve hours or so. I hope they stop now.
Nervewracking
I’m writing a book. It’s a project I’ve wanted to do for a long time, about the bad guys in fairy tales. I have a dark mind, it’s scary to start showing that stuff to people. I have a prologue and three chapters done, if you want to, you can read it here”: http://www.webook.com/project/The-Conclave
Chapter three is definitely rated R, consider that my warning.
Spiders legs curl up when they die because they...
ohyeahfacts:
When humans dies and goes through rigor mortis, we don’t contort in angles because we have two sets of muscles in our arms and legs. Spiders don’t, so when they die their muscles constrict, and their legs curl up.
(source)
Submitted by stopthatchalsea
Day Six- Your Day
Today is wenesday, my no work in the morning, hopefully not too much work in the evening day. I will spend the majority of it on my couch watching Law and Order SVU and generally taking it easy. Then I will go to work, and by the time I leave I will be miserable, in pain, and most likely pissed off about something. Yep. That sounds like my day.
Day Five- Your definition of Love
Love (verb)- to make a conscious choice to sustain a feeling. to act in a manner that is pleasing to yourself and your partner. to work. to hurt. to endure. to enjoy. to play. to tease. to be yourself with someone else. to talk. to listen. to help. to hold. to cry. to laugh. to discover. to learn. to need. to be needed. to hug. to comfort. to release. to accept. to grow. to experience. to touch....
Day Two- Your First Love
Fleeting. The first time I thought I was in love, I was wrong. I had no idea what it meant.
Being in love, for real, is the best feeling in the world. My first love, is worth every effort.
Day One- Introduce yourself
Well, I’m 25. I am an aspiring author, and a mother to be with a passion for music and singing. Occasionally I paint or draw, but I don’t think I’m as good at it as other people seem to. I have an amazing boyfriend, the love of my life. I am so lucky to have him.
I have a lot of strange ideas about things, but I actually think my point of view is one of the most reasonably...
We'll see if I can actually finish this one... →
Day 01 – Introduce yourself Day 02 – Your first love Day 03 – Your parents Day 04 – What you ate today Day 05 – Your definition of love Day 06 – Your day Day 07 – Your best friend Day 08 – A moment Day 09 – Your beliefs Day 10 – What you wore today Day 11 – Your siblings Day 12 – What’s in your…
My weekend has been interesting
Here is a bullet-pointed version of what has happened/what I have done
*Washed my hair three times and got angry because it wasn’t clean when I discovered my new shampoo was conditioner
*Chased a necromancer through candy land in the form of a headless dragon
*Developed new sympathy for slurpies now that several garbage bags of clothes have treated me like one
Yep, those are the...
I Love You
you know, there are a lot of romance movies out there. Chick flicks by common title, and you know what, for years I’ve hated these movies. And you know, I just figured out why.
It’s because I’ve desperately always wanted to be in love. Irony? I figured this out while watching a chick flick. The Ugly Truth to be exact.
And the truth is. I am a control freak. I need to be in...
July 2010
45 posts
Eagles mate while airborn.
ecmooremusic:
ohyeahfacts:
(The Book of Useless Information)
How…the…fuck?!
on further research, it would appear that only foreplay happens in the air, the actually consummation itself happens on a perch
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Just a few thoughts on the church
I’ve been thinking about the Westboro Baptist Church. They get a lot of negative press for their ideas, and protests and spreading hatred. But you know, the more I think about it, the more I realize that they are not alone. The Church in general does this same thing, every day, even among it’s members.
The Bible has a lot to say on lifestyle and sin. It have more to say on love and...
““A fight is going on inside me,” said an old man to his son. “It is a terrible...”
– Jeremy Fink and the Meaning of LIfe, Wendy Mass (via fuckyeahliteraryquotes)
“When you come to the edge of all that you know, you must believe one of two...”
– The Summer King, O.R. Melling (via fuckyeahliteraryquotes)
Tattoos are cool, for the most part....
Lately, I’ve been seeing a lot of pictures of naked girls, covered in tattoos flaunting everything from nipples to snatch. Great. When did it become so cool to show your stuff all over the internet? SO cool, in fact, that other women look up to you for it and spread your vulgarity? As for me. I’m tired of seeing it.
I didn’t join tumblr to be bombarded with pornography. Some...
When I look into my future
I see my daughter and that makes me smile. I see her running in the yard in a little white dress, blowing away the seeds of dandelions and laughing with dimpled cheeks and dark hair. I see her sitting in her room, reading and writing in her diary, in shorts and a tank-top, hair in a pony tail, legs crossed and forehead scrunched as she considers a knew part of life that she isn’t ready to...
I am such a strange creature
No, really. I am. I wank on two legs but currently carry two more. I speak with my mouth but my brain thinks the things I should have said. My body is young and spry, yet sore and broken with experience. I am a walking contradiction it would seem. But then again, I guess, so is everyone else.
I think it's a bit Ironic
that while I feel like the love of my life is falling apart, the song stuck in my head that can’t stop from singing, is a love song
Young Love- The Judds
She was sitting cross-legged on a hood of a Ford Filing down her nails with a emory board Talking to her friends about people they knew And all of the things that young girls do When she said, You see that guy in the baseball cap?...
I dreamed of you last night
The way our passion was insurmountable
Surrounded by a circus of onlookers
We showed them all
And they applauded us
I woke in tears